I Pressed Send

I sat at my computer, fingers hovered over the keys, trembling with trepidation. I’d been asked by an editor at a major publishing house to send a proposal for my book, FROM GRIEF TO GRACE. The book isn’t finished, just the outline and a few chapters. My mind spun with several possible scenarios.

One, they’d love the concept and give me the green light to go ahead.

Two, they’d reject it immediately.

Three, they’d want me to write it differently. Anything could happen once I hit SEND. My life could change forever….or not.

I think back on the times when I’ve made a decision that had life-altering consequences. If I’d only known in advance what was to happen, would I have made a different choice? In some instances, the answer would be a resounding YES!

My husband and I decided we wanted children right away after getting married. Heather was born ten months after our wedding. Bobby, on the other hand, was a surprise. We’d planned to wait until Mike graduated from Bible school before having a second child. But, there he was, all 9 1/2 pounds of him, 20 months after Heather.

If I’d known he would die 30 years later, would I have treated him and Heather any differently? Probably. Isn’t it great that we don’t have a glimpse into the future?

But I digress. If this book proposal is accepted, some things in my life will change. I’ll have a deadline for completion. I’ll have to follow through with marketing, speaking, networking to sell books. I’d have to relive the grieving experience again and again. All this went through my head before I pressed Send. But guess what? I did it anyway. May God bless the outcome.

Published by mygoldenchild

Thoughts on grief, loss, and death.

6 thoughts on “I Pressed Send

  1. You are such a strong person! I really admire your courage moving forward with writing a book about your loss. God bless you.

    1. Thank you. I admire your strength as well. From your FB posts, it looks like you embrace life and your family with vigor, in spite of your physical limitations. Yay for our generation!

  2. I agree with Susan that you’re courageous to hit that button, fully knowing what it could mean for you. And prepared to trust God with the outcome. Amen to that!

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